Happiness

Yesterday, as I lay in bed, fresh out of a game of charades with my dorm, I felt happy. Not giddy yippy yay happy, but plain true happiness. Happiness is not feeling any other emotions than being content with what you have. I am found my niche here. I love the independence that I get, I love being financially and emotionally independent. My friends are awesome, and I have all the money I need on a debit card and it makes me feel good to be able to manage that money and spend it wisely. I am able to be myself without worrying what others think of me because they have the impression thats who I am. No parents, no having to ask permission wherever you go. Not having to ask permission to buy something. I can do anything I please. I feel so comfortable, so settled here. It's too bad that I only have one week left. One week left before I go back to being cooped up in one little house, being once more wrapped under strict rules and expectations. Once you are in charge of yourself, it's hard to give that freedom up to another person.

Wow, it has been a full month already. Does time past quickly or what. I don't want to leave. I would be fully content, the happiest person in the world, if my family could live here. If I would walk with my sister in the green parks of the campus every evening. If I could accompany her to the dining hall and help her get whatever she wants on her plate.

I feel like I have evolved so much over the past month. I'm scared that I will come back to Bush and retreat to the person I used to be. It will be difficult to stay myself, to let this new Duyen that has escaped from her shell stay out. I will try.